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Commitment
by Hth
part 6 of Alpha Centauri
summary: John Sheppard does not have a problem with commitment. Really! No, really!
14,450 words. Really! No, really!
SPOILERS for "Epiphany" (I probably should've waited a week til the US air date of this episode to post, but to quote a great philosopher -- historically, not a strength for me.)
Commitment
by Hth
part 6 of Alpha Centauri
summary: John Sheppard does not have a problem with commitment. Really! No, really!
14,450 words. Really! No, really!
SPOILERS for "Epiphany" (I probably should've waited a week til the US air date of this episode to post, but to quote a great philosopher -- historically, not a strength for me.)
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Date: 2006-01-08 03:16 pm (UTC)From:*FLAIL*
SO AMAZING. SO SO AMAZING. *stares at you in awe*
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Date: 2006-01-08 04:12 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-08 04:29 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-08 05:08 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-08 05:14 pm (UTC)From:a beautifully three-dimensional John - and the whole situation with Rodney and Ronon is so complex but still there feels like hope for a resolution despite everything (oh god, I *really* hope so...)
And then over and above the general awesomeness of it all there are lines like this:
He stood up, brushing sand off his arms, and said, “Rodney McKay, light of my life, dearest treasure of my soul, my one and only hunka-hunka burning love, how about you escort me to that cooler over there, where I will drink to thine eyes and then possibly get a conga line started?”
and this:
He would much rather be amazed than wise.
Thank you.
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Date: 2006-01-08 05:16 pm (UTC)From:I'm so, so glad you worked Teyla in. And Ronon & John talking about Ascension, though frankly I couldn't quite figure out what Ronon meant by:
“This is just bones. It’s the other part that lasts forever. I love you from that part of me. But I can’t stay.”
What's just bones? What other part?
Anyway, you know you have to write the Rodney/Ronon scene now, right? With the flashback to their first time?
Go team you!
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Date: 2006-01-09 08:47 am (UTC)From:I guess as I'm thinking about it I'm starting to see why John keeping Rodney & Ronon apart is so unkind: because I can see Rodney getting a kind of unvarnished physical appreciation and acceptance from Ronon that he doesn't get from John. Love is great, but sometimes it's nice to be lusted after, too.
Bliss...
Date: 2006-01-08 05:26 pm (UTC)From:“This is nothing,” he said. “This is just bones. It’s the other part that lasts forever. I love you from that part of me. But I can’t stay.”
Beautiful, amazing with just enough bitter sweetness to really make it twist my heart in the best kinds of ways. I was seriously pissed at John for a while for busting up the fun, but I am in a forgiving mood now (OMG he has some serious issues) and his setting up a date for Rodney and Ronon was so lovely and right for him to do. Will we get to see what happened in Rodney's room that night?
His talk with Teyla (how I love how you write her) was wrenching. For the first time, I truly felt sympathy for John and how his life has been. I think he was seeing his father in his own actions and that it was wrong to make Rodney choose between two people he loves. The part about not being able to make it right but doing his best for them anyway just killed me.
Many thanks for posting this, you have made my weekend and I am in a state of bliss right now hoping my boys are finally heading towards happiness. Sigh...
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Date: 2006-01-08 06:52 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-08 08:38 pm (UTC)From:i wish i had half the insightfulness and accuracy of words to describe my reaction to this series that you show in portraying them. thank you!!!
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Date: 2006-01-08 09:09 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-08 10:45 pm (UTC)From:This is brilliant and painful and too beautiful for words -- and the ending killed me. What a thing for them to face. I keep thinking about AC's orbital rotation and trinary systems in general and how far objects can swing on one axis while remaining so near on another. I love how that sensibility continues to pervade everything that they are, apart and together. It's so fucking beautiful, and so THEM.
I didn't think I could love them any more than I already did, but I do. :D
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Date: 2006-01-08 11:03 pm (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-09 03:01 am (UTC)From:You broke my heart with this one, and with the rest of the series as well, with way John's hurt himself and the ones he loves, and also - left me melted into a gooey mess with the hot - and I *love* your dialog.
Everything about this is lovely perfection. I sat here when I finished this, with a stupid smile on my face; feeling glowy and happy and really privileged that such skilled writers are putting out things this good in a fandom I love.
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Date: 2006-01-09 03:05 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-09 04:27 am (UTC)From:You've written them all in a wonderfully sympathetic manner. Excellent job, and I look forward to reading more.
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Date: 2006-01-09 10:06 pm (UTC)From:That was just... yes. :)
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Date: 2006-01-10 06:40 am (UTC)From:no subject
Date: 2006-01-14 08:16 pm (UTC)From:Gorgeous, heart-wrenching...have I mentioned lately how much I adore you? Because I do. A lot. In a totally non-stalkery way. *g*
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Date: 2006-04-15 05:15 am (UTC)From:I respond to Ronon's loneliness and lack of surety in the... worth of living in this world -- I respond to Rodney's insecurities and need and just overall spilling-over greed for life -- but I'm actually more like John than I'm entirely comfortable with, and this line "There was nothing here that he was willing to let go of – not yet. He wasn’t that kind of man" is a perfect encapsulation of what he is, and breaks my heart. I could never be this selfless (if I had a Rodney of my very own that in love with me, I would squeeze him tight and never let go), but gah, your John is perfectly shaped by his experiences and moves me. Rodney shies away from trying to make demands on John b/c he instinctly understands that John sees love and need as traps. And Ronon instinctively reverts to soldier mode with him, in the face of his wryness and sarcasm. Rodney may be the center, but John is the one central string-puller. It's funny he should think Rodney is the control freak, because has he never ever looked in the mirror?
For me, this chapter really brings home the reality that Rodney really is the central sun of this arrangement. His heat, his brightness, it draws the others in. He loves and wants and feels with freedom, and if he has as many hang-ups as the rest of us, he doesn't let them get in the way of his goddamned pursuit of happiness. I'm most like John, but I adore Rodney the most. He's just -- I understand why both Ronon and John orbit him. He's the only one of them who is absolute sure of the pleasures of life, to be sucked and enjoyed and hoarded, despite the cruelties. Both John and Ronon are too focused on the cruelties, and Rodney's zest attracts them. He's like the sun, radiating life, and oh, I hope hope hope you haven't given up on this series, because I want a happy ending for them, for Rodney, and I know that won't work until John relents and lets himself go -- both John and Ronon soaking in the rays of Rodney-sun.
I adore this story; it's jam-packed with beautiful character moments and moments of humanity, but at the same time reading it feels indulgent. Like a too-sweet ice cream sundae, only with cunning vitamins to make my bones grow and my skin healthier.
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